Internet Studies First Essay
My first encounters with the internet seem to have been negligible: as far as I knew, the internet had always existed and was some strange archive to be accessed from elementary school computers. At any rate, accessing the web did not come without great trouble since we had to use the phone line back in the age of dialup. As far as I understood, the internet's purpose really only served to collect and display trivia or information about five lined skinks. This probably explains my most formative memory of the internet, in which my father helped me develop a webpage (using basic java and html) for school. The webpage, as I remember, was capable of displaying pictures of far away galaxies and other astronomical bodies with brief subtitles and descriptions below them. Then I remember being satisfied with the plain green background, the ungraceful hypertext and the long clumsy strands of html.
This experience seemed to contain none of Bush's technocratic-utopianism or of Hawthorne's gloom and doom. The internet for me was an immutable yet distanced object in my life which I understood as a given. It appeared more so as a curious tool than anything capable of eventually occupying the greater portion of my waking day with god-awful things like facebook. I do remember taking an early fascination in web design that would later carry on in the form of my interest in managing free forums. Particularly I remember using Microsoft web publishing program to create a nasty looking web page about astronomy, but in this case I didn’t have too much of a concept of the connectedness that the internet afforded nor of its social implications. My concern was in this case a fascination with the possibility of creation that the internet afforded. I believe that the relatively limited scope of my early experiences of the internet were the result of dialup, which occupied the phone line and took a mind-bendingly long time to load a simple page. The internet then was an excursion, a trip into the heart of darkness of technology which severed even contact with the outside world. Thus we usually just left the internet to its own devices and to others in their own homes.
It was not until much later that I would have a richer experience of what the internet was and its potential uses. When I first got high-speed internet I remember immersing myself in Medal of Honor: Allied Assault, video websites like www.albinoblacksheep.com and www.newgrounds.com and www.youtube.com. Even at this phase the social, political and cultural angles of Hawthorne and Bush’s approaches were something that would have never crossed my mind. This was the first time, however, that I was able to engage in something which could be called an online community – through my immersion in video games, and ‘clans’ (online communities and gaming teams) I became more aware of what the internet could perform in my social life.
I also became quite familiar with the memetic nature of the internet – the most poignant early memory of something that can be called a ‘meme’ was my introduction to the “numa numa” dance video by Gary Brolsma. It was funny, quirky, and above all – viral; everyone I knew in middle school had seen it – even my parents were soon familiarized. So, ultimately my early experience with the internet culminated in a certain unconscious cultural induction into the world, particularly with video gaming and memetic internet culture.
It seems to me that the apocalyptic or utopian visions of Vannevar and Bush come only from a critical mindset established from a longstanding relationship with technology or societal norms. This is something I did not have at that age, and so my impressions were devoid of such content.
It seems that the formative stages of my awareness of the internet were relegated to the realm of an oddity. As I mentioned before, much of it seemed like an abstract container for information regarding elementary school biology projects. But once I was graced with the wonders of broadband (not to mention as the internet developed rapidly) I was quickly able to explore a greater use for the internet, even if that use was largely for silliness such as internet memes and videogames. Though my initial exposures did not leave much of a mark upon me, this later stage set the grounds for a way of understanding the world and being inducted into a shared culture which even the least geeky of my friends are familiar with. For me, as for most children, the ‘serious’ political or social undertones of the development of this technology was not a question that concerned us or even entered our radar: it was a de facto piece of the fabric of our daily lives, something which was given and natural.


